Five Minute Friday: Quiet

Today I have been given the gift of quiet, making quiet a most appropriate a prompt. Last evening and  most of today I am alone in one of my sweet spots. One grandson is away at youth camp the other home with his Pap. Yesterday Kaleb captured a small green snake. Now he is in his glory. Not my personal source of joy. But I am blessed for him. 

As for me, given a day of freedom from the daily pressures of home; and rearing two teenage wildcats, I’m wallowing in the serenity of alone in the quiet. I am allowed the freedom to seek Jesus. It’s been a long meandering crawl to find my way back to His light and life. Depression is a nasty creature. Alas, a story for another day. 

Today is my day alone with Him. 

Five Minute Friday:disagree

 Disagree 

    I believe the person I disagree with the most; is myself. My mind plays a constant battle with the question, “what should I do next?”

    I do not regularly set goals. 

I know it’s important. Difficult to accomplish what I do not plan on doing. 

    I struggle and have struggled most of my life with depression. Depression is often misunderstood by many. Those closest to us. Even I myself.  Hence the battle within. 

   Some Christians consider it a spiritual problem. It might be. But I know I can’t pray it away. I eat healthy. I get exercise. I have a therapist. I take medication and supplements. I’m am doing my best to be my best. 

   One of my biggest enemy is the, “Usta coulds, and the I should be!”

So there lies the disagreement. Deep in my coursing spirit I am not alone. The confidence I know and yet do not always FEEL is real.  

  But no matter. My God is. And will always be both my front and real guard. 

   And in there I find rest. 

Five Minute Friday:

  Proverbs 13:11, ESV: "Wealth gained hastily will dwindle, but whoever gathers little by little will increase it."

  Slowly work towards your goal. The scripture uses the word wealth, however, I believe we can transpose it into anything we value. Could be a sin we are trying to overcome. Or perhaps a strength or gift in our lives we want to pursue, to become more accomplished. 

  I would like to be more cheerful, kinder, more patient. Also, spend more time with my horses, to ride regularly again. To seek fellowship with other Christian women, friends I need and desire in my life. 

  I look at all these goals and convince myself they should all be accomplished quickly. Today? Instead of taking the time to slowly work on a few at a time. To rely on the Holy Spirit to lead me and guide me. God does not want be to be burden to myself. To pressure myself into overnight change. When I seek to hurry, rush, I may meet my mark, but it will not endure over time. Little by little I must work to increase my proficiency thereby establishing the destination I chase, and maybe more.