Kaleb is asleep; DA is sucking down his evening cocktail of baby formula and rice cereal. Yum, yum! I have just tried to type that four times. My fingers are sure not doing the walking tonight. I swore I would never prop up a bottle for a baby. Oh, well...so many things change. I do have to grab him and burp him or the sleeping may not go so well. He smells so good right now it would be a shame to stink him up with baby puke...fluids again. OK, burping with one hand typing with the other. That's not working so well either.
All is complete. Both babes are sound asleep. Jer brought me some stuff that needs filled out by tomorrow; at least its not two dozen cupcakes or something awful like that. As soon as I get the pics from my camera from my dad's I will post one or two.
Babies keep getting cuter, but I am getting a bit weary. I need my spirit stirred for the long haul. On one hand I cannot imagine not having them, but on the other I am leaning heavily on the Power of God to bring me through this on so many levels. These tiny little people so dependant, so helpless to continue on without their every need being met through the grownups in their lives. The honor, privilege, responsibility of it all is awesome in the overwhelmingly filled with awe kind of way.
And, in a completely different way than the other day I am undone.
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hang in there my friend. The Lord will give you strength. Call for back-up when you need it.
Day by day he will get you through...
Watching the show 17 kids and counting... all were born naturally... and they just announced #18 is on the way...
I think that is so cool... I would love to have a big family... but the Lord knows I need limits and doesn't give us more than we can handle... He's pretty smart and knows what He's doing... :)
Well this will be a weekend of studying... BIG real estate test on Monday. Then I will have one more BIG test November 3rd. Then I will take the BIG BIG State Exam.
I haven't taken a test in 12 years and the last time I did I got pretty sick from anxiety... Trusting the Lord for a new experience.
Well my mind is spinning from all the information, options, doors opened and closed regarding adoption. Here is the short version. After talking with a lot of people, getting counsel and exploring options, today it looks like I am going to check into being a foster parent. Not my first choice, but a variety of roads seem to be leading this direction (as of now - tomorrow might be different...) I am planning on doing foster-to-adopt. Too tired to go into all the details. Plan to look into Indiana CYS (REALLY NOT what I would like to do, but will knock on that door until another opens...)
Anyway, I will give more updates later. Sleep is calling.
Like I said... tomorrow can change everything... looking into another agency...
The big hurdle I am trying to get over is chosing an agency that doesn't require me to pay $1250- $2500.
Think I got a winner...
http://www.pfcs.org/
Rob??? Almost afraid to hear what you have to say, but your two cents are welcomed...
My new computer is getting the mother board replaced today...
I love my PC... :) (hmmmm)
Sandy,
It is such a blessing to read your blog. I thank you for your honesty and the genuine struggle that you portray. I sit here and pray for you at this very moment and pray that God would give you strength, humility, help, and above all grace to make it through the physical, emotional, and spiritual battles that you are encountering.
God's sovereignty is amazing and He has been continually teaching me that I understand very little about it through experiences in my own life but more so experiences in others.
Thank you for sharing and I will keep praying. God's strength is abundant and He will carry you through.
And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ,”- Philippians 1:9-10
Love, Sara Krull
Wednesday, 1 October 2008
Vicki, how's PFCS going? All agencies have good and bad points, good and bad workers. Adoption/Permanency is a HUGE deal, and a lot of money is involved. Sibling adoptions are a challenge, and two little girls (or two boys or two teens or whatever)... also challenging. The main thing is that the more specific you are in what you're seeking, the more difficult it can be. But, as you keep reminding me, the person in charge is God, not any agency or caseworker or manager.
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I'm in Harrisburg... of course! I'm really excited at how God's giving me so many opportunities to keep stretching and pushing myself. I'm being given some bigger responsibilities and becoming involved in higher-level things... and God's helping me all along the way.
I know the actual things I'm talking about will seem petty or no big deal to most, but for ME, they are radical.
Time to kick back with my caffeine free diet coke (whoo! living large!) and watch whatever's on Food Network.
Rob, for quite some time now you have referenced watching the food network. So are you a gormet cook now? Any recipes to share? What's your specialty?
Had my real estate class tonight. BIG test on Monday, but I have the best teacher ever. She agreed to let us have an open book test... (but shhhh... it's a secret...)
Well I called PFCS and they were ready to sign me up today. All I really need to do is complete my paperwork and take the CPR classes. I told her that I have been going full speed ahead with all of the adoption process and need to put it all on hold now for a month. I need to focus on passing the real estate exam and get that behind me because the classes are so time consuming. So November 4th she comes to my house to do the home study and get me started. I will keep you all posted... baby steps...
How ya doin' Sandy?
Oh I could really use a nap... for like a month... Loving fall though... my favorite season ever...
I think you need to get spell check on this blog Sandy... I can't type without it... tons of mistakes in the last entry...
Oh well... you get the gist... :)
Vic, Rob's right Vic...God is in charge. Remember we when we started to into "foster-adopt" we were little girl hunting. God had other plans. But you will hear His Voice and know.
Sara, thanks for your encouragement. Very timely for me. I started praying that scripture.
Rob, really...I rarely see anything on the Food Network that goes with caffiene free diet anything. Maybe I get the high fat stick of real butter channel...
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